faceless numbers

I watch you sleeping,

an eerie calm upon your face.

You see me looking at you,

My eyes wide,

Searching you for signs of danger.

You bat your eyelids,

And flash me a smile,

Through those very eyes.

Those charms, ah! Such charms,

They don’t work no more.

My blink less stare,

Makes you realize,

It’s not a dream.

You say something,

You think is sweet.

It constricts my vessels,

Long enough to let me breathe.

Memories, they come rushing in;

Uninvited.

A different bed, a different person

And those “sweet nothings”…

You, a number on the list?

I’ve been here before,

Picked myself up,

And left.

A shirtless back,

No shame, no guilt.

The window beckons.

Sunlight- a ray of hope

To escape?

I’ve been here before,

It’s never hard to leave.

Easy come, easy go.

The warmth of the sun,

On my bare body,

Incomparable,

To that exuded by yours.

The sun tingles at the surface,

You burn me deep within.

But I will shed thee,

Like a skin.

Because it’s never  hard to leave,

a faceless number.